How do I deal with the same issues and feelings as you? I subscribe to writers I genuinely hope to NOT miss, to support and do what I can, within the hour or so a day I allot to Medium. I'm heading off tomorrow to caretake my elderly mother, so of course my schedule will need tweaking but I remind myself to think of it energetically. (woo alert) If I'm stressed, readers will 'catch' it. Perhaps we all need to relax and reassure one another we are here for them even when we're not. Hope this makes sense.