I'm so blessed to have friends on Medium like you, Rebecca, plus a great shrink who is an expert on grief/healing from it. (Her husband died suddenly of a heart attack WAY too young, late 40s/early 50s) She encourages me to look inward, confront, feel, then let it go. Moving on to the peace of Acceptance at last, which feels wondrous. Like a shower after a long, sweaty day